I struggle with the notion of what a woman is. My work explores what it means to be a woman and the struggle to understand all that entails. Motherhood opened a world within me that is both painful and empowering. Causing me to reevaluate the roles I have resisted and submitted to, and how I see myself as a woman. Experiencing my daughter’s adolescence has awoken memories, causing a deep reflection on how our childhood shapes us as women, and the role vulnerability plays in our development.

BLUR: Unraveling the Feminine, Masculine, and Everything In-between


“A Sister Among Many”

Acrylic on canvas, 69 x 120″, 2021

The notions of feminine and masculine causing a trance, resulting in a preconceived ideas of femininity. Keenly aware of how much the outside world has dictated our choices. She is a mother, a rebel, a brut, and a temptress; her body is an expression of her genetics but does not define her. She liberates herself from old ideas; she releases herself from needing to find new ones. This is a declaration of separation from all outside governing parties to determine her worth and responsibilities. She is willing to walk alone, knowing she is never alone. She is a sister amongst many.

“I Am Many Things At Once”
Acrylic on canvas, 54 x 50″, 2021
Inspired by Colleen Graham
“I Am, You Are”
Acrylic on canvas, 48 x 48″, 2021
Inspired by Irna Magda and Michelle Amador

“Unraveling”

Acrylic on canvas, 40 x 60″, 2020

Over time, her environment has informed what she should look like, act like, and want. At the time of her becoming, she discovers she must unravel, pick apart, and separate her relationship with the natural world from everything else that has led her astray. 

One of the most challenging paintings I’ve done recently. This puzzle took almost two years to solve. 

Inspired by Nicole Weaver and Kim Stewart 

“She Remembers Everything”

Acrylic on canvas, 40 x 60″, 2020

“Finding Another Way”

Acrylic on canvas, 40 x 60″, 2020

Looking at the way girls and women challenge the barriers they face. From discrimination to lack of resources, women have a long history of making shit happen regardless of being told they can’t. Strong, resilient, and wise, women will find ways around systems that hold them back.

Inspired by Adrienne, Carolyn Crist Wright, and Be Boggs.

“With, Without”
Acrylic on canvas, 48 x 48″, 2020
Gender roles are not always what they appear on the outside.
A collaboration with Luciano Mota.
“Holding”
Acrylic on canvas, 48 x 48″, 2020
As mothers, women are often the first step in a child’s mental health care, making her a critical partner in the mental health of future generations. The figure crouches to hold herself, in a moment of solitude, she seeks to restore her own emotional and spiritual center amidst the chaos surrounding her. The background is patched together, recognizing the deep work women must do within, to care for themselves and others.

Inspired by a photograph by Dana Divird Stevens of Carolyn Crist Wright
“Intuition by Definition”
Acrylic on canvas, 12 x 36″, 2020
In the L’Esperance Collection
“Who Is A Feminist”
Acrylic on canvas, 36 x 73″, 2021

Inspired by Gabi Markham
“Repurposing Shame”
Acrylic on canvas, 48 x 36″, 2020
Examining the shame that she held at an early age and remembering the wisdom she once had but ignored. In the observation of her knowing she can reimagine what was once shame, is now empowered knowledge.
“She Finds Her Way”
Acrylic on canvas, 36 x 24″, 2020
Experiencing a daughter’s adolescence will awake memories, causing a deep reflection on how childhood shapes us as women, and the role vulnerability plays in our development. An intense relationship between drawing a daughter close and letting her go, allowing her to have her own becoming.

“Focusing On Possibility”
Acrylic on canvas, 24 x 24″ 2019
In Read Collection
“Taking On The World With All That I Am ”
Acrylic on canvas, 24 x 36″, 2019
In Kohlmeister Collection
Navigating the world with blind ambition, struggling for self-esteem that is challenged by other girls her age.
“Women: Independence, Interdependence”
Acrylic, thread, cotton yarn on cardboard with video, 24 x 48″, 2020
A meditation on how pain is stored in the female body. With phrases like I am afraid to be vulnerable, I am not lovable, and childhood fear taught me not to trust. Phrases were written on each disc, and used to create the breast element in the work. Within the work, there are references to gender dysphoria, menses as independence and interdependence, and the female body as being in service.
“Women: Independence, Interdependence”
Video that accompanies the < painting
“Coming of Age”
Acrylic on canvas, 36 x 36″, 2019
Transitioning from being a child to being an adult. It continues through the teenage years of life. The specific age at which this transition takes place varies between societies, as does the nature of the change. – Wikipedia
“Introvert”
Acrylic on canvas, 42 x 42″, 2019
Out of all the personality traits that have been studied, introversion / extroversion is one of the most strongly hereditary ones. Being introverted may create additional challenges for girls at a time when they are most vulnerable.

“Innocence as a Privilege”

Acrylic on canvas, 55 x 55″, 2019

Remembering feelings of profound loss as the adult world begins pushing itself at her while she is still in the fog of her juvenescence.
Now, she questions her innocence? Will she have the right to choose?
How will the pace of her maturity affect her longterm development?

“Reality Check”
Acrylic on canvas, 20 x 16″, 2021
“Keeping The Peace ”
Acrylic on canvas, 24 x 18″, 2021

“What Does it Mean To Be A Woman”

Sample draft for art film 2021

What Does it Mean to Be A Woman is an art film taken from 30 zoom interviews intended to encourage meaningful conversation that exposes fuller gender representation—providing a platform for perspectives and experiences to shape our collective future.

ARCHIVE OF OLDER WORK


“Within”
Oil on canvas, 48 × 70″, 1990
“I AM Mystery”
Acrylic on linen, 30 x 40″, 2020
In Daly Collcection
“Never Forget Where You Come From, Always Remember Where You’re Going”
Acrylic on canvas, 48 × 48″, 2016 – Detail
This painting is part of the West of Lincoln Project. Ruth worked in collaboration with Leonard to capture his painful story that communicates wisdom found in his roots growing up in Venice, CA. 
“Not Just Me Anymore”
Acrylic on canvas, 36 × 36″, 2016
Painted in collaboration with Fernando Manzanilla. The painting reflects a portion of “Fern’s” life story and the wisdom he has as a result of the struggles he faced  growing up in Venice, CA. This painting is part of the West of Lincoln Project. The content of this painting came from working closely with Fern for three months, making sure the details reflected his valuable life wisdom.

“Where Do We Go From Here”

Acrylic on canvas, 48 x 48″, 2018
In the CHIRP Collection

An interpretation of a photo from 1967: Shelly Covert being held by Grandpa Ralph, her mother Ginger (Virginia) Lee Rose-Covert and her father. ‘Nisem humwa’a’ is Nisenan for > my family is from my heart or, my heart is drawn to my family (exact translation is difficult).

Completed with permission from the Covert family, this painting expresses the significance of indigenous people to a their community. How the American dream has played a roll in their development as a tribe externally and internally. This painting is a gift to the Covert family.

“Second Chance”
Acrylic on canvas,  36 × 36″,  2016
This painting is part of the West of Lincoln Project. The content of this painting came from working closely with Eddie for several months on the phone and through texts, making sure the details reflected his valuable life wisdom.
“Place Of Strength”
Acrylic on canvas, 36 x 36″, 2016
Painted in collaboration with Gloria Omar capturing her unique point of view while dealing with delicate subject matter. This is one of 12 paintings from the West of Lincoln Project.
“No Utopia Here”
Oil on canvas, 48 × 72″, 1993
Painted during my attendance at the San Francisco Art Institute.
“Grass Is Greener”
Oil on canvas, 48 × 72″, 1993
Painted during my attendance at the San Francisco Art Institute.
“Tamed, Untamed”
A painting of Lorna Pacheco
Acrylic on canvas, 49 x 36″, 2021

Background: 
Represents the indigenous matriarchy later adulterated. 
Red: 
Biology, passion, the life force for humanity. 
Sister on Left: 
Our childhood relationships are a time when living a kind of feral authenticity is a powerful part of our development. She is no longer the child/sister but a woman who has taken the wild with her wherever she goes. Once the child, she is now covered in her biology, embracing passion, and uses her life force to better humanity. 
Sister on Right: 
A symbol of struggle, endurance, sportsmanship, and untamed spirit.
“Seeker”
Acrylic on canvas, 48 x 30″

ARCHIVE OF DRAWINGS


“Finding Freedom”

Charcoal and pencil on paper, 2016

This piece came from the Becoming A Better Sinner series.